Hebrews 11:8

 

      It has been two months since I surrendered to the idea that God wanted me to return to Nicaragua with the next year's FYM team. After a lot of prayer, I finally did feel 100% sure, and God gave me such an overwhelming desire to see this happen, too - don't you love that God works like that? Each time I brought back to God my concerns and insecurities about helping to lead, He replaced them with peace. Since the last blog I wrote about next year, which I think was the beginning of January, I haven't always had that peace. In fact I reached a point two weeks ago where I briefly considered contacting AIM and taking back my application. This was exactly the time that our ladies' Bible study (we're going through Believing God, by Beth Moore) hit this verse. Abraham began his journey without knowing where he was going; without having a backup plan; without seeing any sort of "sign". He believed that God would bring him to where he needed to be, and he went. Beth talked about how the middle period, the journey, is often the hardest. It's the time where you have God's command and promise in your memory, but haven't yet seen that promise fulfilled. There came one point where she said "If God has confirmed His calling on your life for a specific ministry, stop doubting! He WILL do what He says He will do."

     This has been on my mind for a while because that's where I am. I do believe that God has called me to be in Granada, Nicaragua next year. I'm just waiting. I haven't heard back from AIM yet, but I'm believing God. He is preparing me for next year, and I'm trying to mentally prepare myself too. No, I don't have a backup plan. If God doesn't come through in this, then honestly I'm in trouble. But my God is faithful, and I will put my faith in Him. I would love it if you could pray that my faith would be strengthened as I wait on the Lord.