Over a year after leaving (and nearly 10 months after when I had originally planned to return), I am headed back to Nicaragua in a leadership position with AIM's Ambassador program. This trip will be one month long and I will be with a small group of high school age girls. I will leave Hershey, PA on June 13th, and will be back mid-July.

     My emotions are at times torn between excitement and uneasiness, between confidence and doubt. I have so many questions I must continually take before God... Will I be a good leader? Can I afford to take off a whole month of work in the peak of tourism season? Do I really want to be out of the country for a month, just a few months before my own wedding? Yet as many times as I ask these questions, I am faced with one of my favorite aspects of God's character - Jehovah Shalom, GOD IS PEACE. I will not have all the answers (or all the necessary energy, I'm sure!) for the girls I will be leading, but God has promised that He is my strength and wisdom. I may be leaving at a time in the summer when others think I am crazy, but God has promised that He is my provider and will supply all my needs. I may miss my home and my fiance to the point of tears, but God has promised that He is my comfort, my lover, my friend, and He will never let me go. Reminding myself of those promises always brings my focus back to the God I trust.